A Quiz

Because I feel like talking and don't know what to say.

These are always so stupid. You should not read this. Nothing eventful will happen.


1. Would you chew gum after someone else already has?
Eh. I probably would. . . . . Within reason. . . . .Although it just sounds sort of gross right now.
2. What describes your relationship status?
Sigh. There's this boy. He's nice. Really nice. He likes to sit really close to me.
. . . Apparently, I'm a moron. And, well, only tomorrow will tell.
3. Who was your last call from?
Lovely Lauren
4. Are you a heart breaker, or the broken hearted?
Ha. Well. I don't think I can say I have honestly been either. I don't know how I feel about that. 5. Ever been skinny dipping?
I haven't had much opportunity to. And that's fine.
6. Earrings or necklace?
I like both. I think necklaces can be more subtle.
7. Who have you talked to most today?
Lauren, duh.
8. Pumpkins?
You suddenly became very stupid, survey.
9. Friend of the opposite sex that lives closest to you?
Well, Tim I guess.
10. Color of your shirt?
Bluey blue blue.
11. How many years have you taken a language?
Um. 2 1/4 of French. And I still sound terrible.
12. Who's on speed dial 2?
My house.
13. What color is your background on your computer main screen?
It's Anne Hathaway's garden.
14. Do you wish on 11:11?
Not really. I don't ever notice it.
15. Good advice if you ever go camping?
At night, it's cold. During the day, its boring. Bring blankets and books.
16.Are you a bad influence?
I am the voice of reason.
17. What color are your eyes?
Tree stump Brown.
18. Would you rather have your name or your siblings name?
I actually hadn't thought of that. Hmm, her name is nice...but i think I like mine more.
19. Would you do anything for someone?
Yes.
20. Have you ever been called a bitch?
Oh I'm sure.
21. Favorite color?
Blue. And green. And orange. And...all the other ones.
22. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Yes. When I want to show I'm happy but have used "lol" too much.
23. What song is on?
Burning Bridges. Jason Mraz.
24. Are your grades good?
No. Succeeding is frowned upon at the Academy.
25. Do you ever think people hate you for filling these out?
Well, yes maybe lol.
29. Last time you went out to lunch?
Ha. Today.
30. Do you watch the Gilmore Girls?
Oh yes. I am a Gilmore girl lol.
31. Have you ever enjoyed listening to Jack Johnson?
For a moment.
32. Have you ever seen or enjoyed watching the O.C.?
Mm. Adam Brody. I enjoy that part of the O.C.
33. Do you have one or more Britney Spears C.D.
No. I really don't. Sorry Brit. I never really liked you.
35. Are you a Lost fanatic?
No. I just never got in on that.
36. Still have pictures of your ex?
No. I don't know if I ever had pictures of him.
43. Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
I try subtle car singing. Unless I'm with someone else. Then I just don't care.
44. Do you ever sing obnoxiously in the shower when no one is home?
Not home? Pshh. All the time.
45. Have you ever watched a little kid's show?
I babysit.
46. Have you ever pretended your crush was with you when they weren't?
Um, crazy much? Although I find myself looking for them where I know they won't be.
47. Did you draw pictures for your first crush back in elementary?
No I don't remember every being very proud of my pictures. I did however give him a kiss when he moved away. His name was Jeff.
48. Have you ever liked a girl/boy but didn't ask her/him out because you were afraid?
Are you kidding me? I thought that was kind of implied. I may be in this limbo right now.
49. Have you ever written a poem or story about your life?
Yes. Yes, I have. Creative writing was a good idea for a bit. 
50. Have you ever spent over an hour thinking about nothing but a certain person?
Just sat there for an hour thinking about him? I...don't think so.
51. Have you ever liked someone solely because of there appearance?
Uh well, I'm not yet friends with Adam Brody so...yes.
52. Do you eat all the servings in the food groups on a daily basis?
Oh I wish I did.
53. Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
Oh I wish I was.
54. Have you ever been to South America or Africa?
No, I would like to go someday.
55. do you know to knit?
I had a midnight knitting party once. I don't remember how anymore.
56. Do you have a cell phone or iPod with a patterned cover?
No. I made one for my iPod once though. I wonder where that went?
57. Have you ever written love song lyrics yourself and put them on myspace?
Ha. No. I can't say I've written love song lyrics and put them anywhere.
58. Do you keep a diary or journal online?
Um. Hi. :)
59. When you open your closet, what is the dominant color?
It's a pretty vibrant mix. Blue probably. I have a lot of green and brown too though.
60. Baskin Robbins or Coldstone?
Coldstone baby. Three days in a row!! I'm not a fatty. No.
61. Physics or chemistry?
Physics.
62. Earphones or headphones?
I don't really care.
63. Pink or teal?
Teal.
64. Earrings or a ring?
I like both. But I play with rings and big earrings scare me. So, whichever.
65. Commitment or casual dating?
At the moment, either sound good. 
66. Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, or Star Wars?
Harry Potter.
67. Fly or road trip?
I love flying. I love road trips.
68. Starbucks?
Yeah, okay.
69. Favorite disney movie?
Peter Pan. The Little Mermaid. Lion King. Aladdin 
RED iS ANGER
1. Are you currently angry?
No. I'm happy.
2. Which of your family members has the worst temper?
My mom, certainly.
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
Ha. Yes. I've had numerous things thrown at me though.
4. Is anyone mad at you?
I don't know why anyone would be.
5.Are you usually mad?
No.
6. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?
I'm not big on yelling. I bet I can stare though.
ORANGE iS EXCITEMENT
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?
No lol.
2. What event is coming up that you're most excited about?
Tomorrow sounds good.
3. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought?
"I can pay for college!! And London! And Australia! And I can fix the car!!"
4. If you could have anything right now what would it be?
AnyTHING?
YELLOW iS SELF DISCOVERY
1. Name: Caity
2. Birthday: October 11th
3. What's your main goal in life?
To do the things I want to and find happiness.
4. Do you want to have children?
Yes.
5.When do you want to die?
Before I stop functioning by myself
GREEN is OPINIONS
1. Are you against gay marriage?
No. Not in the least.
2. Lower the drinking age?
Eh. Whatever. People who would drink already do lol. So. Whatever.
3. Capital Punishment?
I'm undecided.
4. Abortion?
People should have the right to choose.
BLUE iS LOVE
1. Do you love someone?
Love? Nope.
2. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Maybe rarely.
3. Do you believe in Love?
Yes. I do.
PURPLE iS Q&A
Q: how many beds did you lay in today?
2
Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
Smile.
Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
10 dollars.
Q: Look to your left.
Okay. Wall.
Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed?
Ha! A shirt from Lauren! Which I just gave back. . .
Q: Do you have plants in your room?
Ricky's plastic plants. ....My room doesn't get a lot of sunlight. Oh! I do have a rose on my night stand.
Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
My insides hate me.
Q: Do you own a picture phone?
Yes.
Q: Recent time you were really upset?
Um. I'm not sure.
PINK iS LAST
1. Person you saw:
Molly.
3. Movie watched in cinema:
Um. It's been too long. Um, Music and Lyrics.
4. Song you listened to:
Moving too Fast. The Last Five Years.
5. Person you talked on the phone with:
Lauren.
6. Did you notice that the question 2 was gone?
Briefly.
GREY iS TODAY
1. What are you doing right now?
This, silly.
2. What are you doing tonight?
Sleeping I hope.
3. What are you going to eat?
I've already eaten too much.
BROWN is TOMORROW
1. Tomorrow is:
Going to be a good day.
2. Are you Looking forward to it?
Yes I am.
3. Are you going to laugh?
Laugh, yes. And lean.

Just a Mirror for the Sun

What do I say?

There is so much to say, I don't even know how to start.

Reno. I'll start with that.

Honestly, I had a fabulous time. It was the perfect mix of crazy and calm. Our plane was an hour late but I think it ended up being perfect because there wasn't much down time to get bored. Or uncomfortable. I felt important. I loved that what I sacrafice myself for is worth something to someone. It made me realize that there are greater things then high school. And somehow I'll fit into them.

The theatre company I'm in won the Govonor's Art's Award and it was a pretty big deal to all of us. I thought it was cool and all but I was more interested in the idea of performing for all of those people. To showcase our little company that should be so much bigger. What our perfomance really made me see though is just how prepared I am for the crazy unknown of other theatres. It didn't matter that no one there seemed to know what they were doing. We went with the flow and it all worked out. I felt like the adults standing in the wings watching were acutally impressed. And it was fun to perform in a foreign theatre. I felt like I was on tour.

Which makes me question how people can actually go on tour or can actually live through a tour. Right after we got our suitcases we filed into the vans and drove to the university, warming up in the car. (By singing to the radio) And then we met in the parking lot and did more warm-ups (By doing jumping jacks and other silly theatrical warm-ups). And then some man who thought he was pretty much the coolest thing ever came to find us becuase he was afraid we were not coming. He hurded us into the theatre (throught the catacomb like underbelly of the building, really) and onto this stage that everyone else thought was huge but I felt like it was kinda tiny. Maybe it was because I wasn't used to the marly and wood floor combo. And the over-head lights felt very oppressive. Anyway, they made it seem like we were not going to get the chance to run through the show but before I could figure out what was going on, we were. And this balding man in a suit was taking pictures. And people in nice clothes were flitting around everywhere watching us out of the corners of their eyes.

I don't think they expected the show they got. 

We did our pieces and I felt ...so proud of everyone. I wasn't nearly as nervous as I was afraid I'd be. Only 600 people or so. And more then anything, it was fun. 

We ate dinner at 11:30 after the most entertaining van ride to the hotel from UNR. Our van most defiantly could take your van in a cage match. Pretty much just because Kris is our driver. I have videos galore. 

I roomed with Sam which was mildly disappointing because I was so certain I would be rooming with Lauren. Which is funny. If I had roomed with Lauren....I wonder how things would have played out. I doubt talk of Strip Ice Bench Game rematches would be going around. And I probably wouldn't have a letter penned at 3 in the morning beginning, Caity, I think I'm a terrible person. 

But, that's okay. Because I was getting sick. Really sick. Near death ill. 

Which made meeting the Governor and visiting Virginia city so fun!!! Ha. 

Not a lot to say about Carson City except that it was cold the picture with the Gov. were tedious and we had more entertaining van conversation relating to how I hold all of the cards in any relationship I choose to enter, Devin's necklace is certainly going to fall off, the appeal of ancient ensemble members and several several several rounds of, who would you rather see naked. I never ever ever ever ever need to think about half of the people we talked about naked again. Man. Only in the cool van. Doubtful that they talked about that in Toni's van. 

Virginia City is pretty cool. I don't know if it was the fact that my equilibrium was so terrible that I felt like the world was tilting most of the day, but I felt like the whole city was going to fall into the valley below. It's perched on the mountain side and is simply ancient. They took us to an old theatre that was disappointingly being renovated but, the kind men let us in to look at the stage. Everyone has preformed there, Houdini, Mark Twain, many more. There was an actual raked stage. Which turned out to be a really slight incline. We sat in the boxes beside the stage still with the faded red velvet seats and the props still sitting back stage enchanted me.

Then the rest of the day was spent teetering around (quiet literally if you're me) buying impractical things from the antique shops. Oh. And the mood lipstick we actually got Kris and Josh to wear in the van ride back. Still greatest van ever!! At lunch I learned about the shenanigans of the night before and was only slightly disappointed I didn't get to participate. Next time. Even though they don't believe I would have played. Please don't underestimate me. Although KK's level is far passed mine. And I'm glad Josh can still be some what of a mystery to me. 

Plane was bumpy. Notes were obviously exchanged about Josh and I think a little piece of him died inside when you held his hand because you were scared of the turbulence, Lauren. I was just getting more sick and in my delirium I could see how you could confuse my using him for a support as something else. Although, it was not. I was falling over. 

I was disappointed when the trip ended. It was the most fun I've had in a long time. And the greatest Rainbow trip I've been on. Doing what I love with the people I love. Too bad I couldn't get out of bed for three days after. Whatever, I don't, Kris had or JB, I had it too. 

We need to road trip again. 

It's days like these when I remember I am just like everyone else.

The topic of this entry frustrates me before I've even started writing what it is. Just the idea that I feel compelled to write this entry pains me. But, I want to. I need to.

Welcome to being 17.

Here you are trapped behind that number. It defines you as a person in both your intellectual capabilities and your physical. It decides what you truly care about and what you deserve to have a say in.
I suppose it's always that way. And I've always been and will most likely continue to be annoyed about it beyond my fill.

Tonight was not the night for this to happen. I was going to enjoy the fact that its technically my Friday. I leave for Reno tomorrow. And tonight I was going to actually sit at my desk and NOT do homework and then clean my room. It was just my understanding that I needed to have it clean before Reno.

Still, as this always happens, my parents get sick of how my room is not clean at the most inconvenient times. They are just so idiotic about it. And I stay calm through all of their ridiculous rage. In fact, I take a little joy in seeing how far I can push them. Which is stupid on my part but I have got to win some of these battles. Even if it's the self-created kind.

I've been busy. Really, really busy. I sacrifice my sleep for my homework and my sanity. I've been averaging three and a half hours a night. For the past week or more. It's starting to effect my heath. I get this splitting headaches when I start to get tired.

I'm sorry but I've found better things to do then put my laundry away. There are greater things in the world then a dirty room. Yes, this is about a dirty room. I thought we were over this. I could be doing inappropriate things with me time, illegally inappropriate, but I spend it all at community theatre, and you waste all of this rage, and I do mean rage, on the pile of laundry.

It makes me sad.

Ah! There is so much I wanted to say about this. I had some really great thoughts and some really great points. But, I am tired beyond the point of proper functioning and my head is beginning to ache. I'm sorry for the stupid rant. I'll redeem myself later I promise. I just wanted a post before I left and I had the material so there.

25 Plus Things I Want to do in my Life

Updated!!!
My physics teacher is a smart man well versed in saying the right thing. I want to live life a little like he does. He's such a teenage adult I love it. His newest assignment is for us to make a list of things we want to accomplish. I really like setting goals. Maybe this will be my rough draft.

Everything I want: Vain and selfless acts alike, long and short term goals: In life I want to:

1) Be a professional actress.
2) Perform onstage in another country
3) Build a house for someone who needs it
4) Attend the Academy Awards no matter what side of the rope I'm on
5) Move to Los Angles and give everything a fighting chance
6) Live in London
7) Visit: Australia, New Zealand, Scotland, South Africa, Egypt, Israel, China, India, Luxembourg, Sudan, Cambodia, Hawaii, Ireland, Peru ect
8) Make a positive difference in someone's life.
9) Write an inspiring and usable script and watch it preformed.
10) Go to college in city I can be happy in with people I like in a major I can be pleased with.
11) Star in a show.
12) Go to Africa and live there and help.
13) Watch myself on the big screen.
14) Look into adopting a child.
15) Learn to surf. And windsurf. And go hang-gliding.
16) Learn to speak French fluently. And dabble in some Italian and German.
17) Be homeless for a day and sleep in the park with a companion. Being homeless alone would suck.
18) Get married to someone I like. Have kids.
19) Befriend Jason Mraz and perform and take Polaroid’s with him.
20) Swim with dolphins.
21) Read Shakespeare in the Globe.
22) Write a story to be proud of.
23) Plant a tree in a park.
24) Live on an island.
25) Go to prom. And leave early for something more exciting. . .like ice skating or sky diving.
26) Learn to play the drums.
27) Consider the Peace Corps?
28) Create a new restaurant and name it Owen's. Offer Molly a job.
29) Do something spontaneous. Often.
30) Write a song.
31) Go on tour.
32) Learn how to fly a plane.
33) Go sailing.
34) Visit and beautify something in all 50 states.
35) Work with: Johnny Deep, Raviv Ullman, Matt Damon, Tim Robins, Reese Witherspoon, Adam Brody, Meryl Streep, James McAvoy, Heath Ledger, Jake Gyllenhaal, Robin Williams, Sopia Coppola, George Cloony and more.
36) Live free from discrimination,
37) Keep a friend that I know now for 20 or more years
38) Keep an interesting journal. Because I already have an uninteresting one
39) Feed an elephant a peanut.
40) Have a cooking specialty. My apple pie/crisps are pretty good…
41) Join an improv group
42) Make a pizza from scratch
43) Fall in love.
44) Become a better dancer. &:
45) Learn how to swing dance.
46) Climb Lone Mountain and watch the sunrise over the Strip.
47) Not die of cancer.
48) Go to First Friday.
49) If necessary, have the guts to tell someone how I feel about them.
50) Learn to sing
51) Make ice cream from scratch
52) Do something worth talking about later.
53) Live in solitude and write about everything very Walden-esque.
54) Walk hand in hand through the streets of Paris with a gentleman.
55) Make someone’s day.
56) Kiss in the rain
57) Teach someone.
58) Be a flight attendant. But, not for long.
59) Assist in the casting of a show.
60) Come back to Rainbow and do something...
61) Design a theatre. Or just help suggest things.
62) Be featured in Vanity Fair.
63) Watch someone else become successful and feel like I knew them “Way back when…”
64) Go on a tour of Europe given by natives.
65) Learn to play a sting instrument.
66) To not regret anymore the things I should have done.
67) Learn to do pull-ups.
68) Remain able to do the splits for the rest of my life.
69) Design a roller coaster.
70) Find out the real name of “The Ice Cream Man”.
71) Date a well known actor.
72) Lose 10 pounds.
73) Attend a rugby match.
74) Go back to London and sit in the sandwich shop to see if “Pink Shirt boy” comes in.
75) Vote!
76) Have a pen-pal.
77) Survive a dangerous situation with a great story
78) Audition for a Broadway show.
79) Solve a mystery.
80) Learn to do a back-flip on a trampoline
81) Stay up all night with someone I like watching classic movies and eating Oreo’s.
82) Ride Space Mountain.
83) Be nominated for some sort of achievement award.
84) Dye my hair blonde. Laugh. Dye it back.
85) Build a tree house!
86) Invent something
87) Paint a self-portrait.
88) Win a game at Laser Quest
89) Hold a Koala.
90) Publish a book of photography featuring pictures of nature and portraits of people
91) Work at an animal shelter.
92) Have a professional photo shoot. Become a print model for a day.
93) Go on a safari.
94) Spend the night in a castle.
95) Film my entire day and see if anything interesting comes up.
96) Find a puppy.
97) Be sent flowers for no real reason.
98) Attend a movie premiere and be asked for an autograph.
99) Have my last name featured on a movie poster or a poster for a play.
100) Get straight A’s.
101) See every movie that has won the Best Picture Academy Award.
102) Say something worth quoting


What else do I want to do?
Wow, there's so much more too. I want to do some much. I think I'm going to condense this before I turn it in. I'm tired from thinking of the future. The possiblities are so vast they are giving me a headache. It's all so very exciting.

Also, his brother's name is Jason. Oh the irony. I wonder what he was coughing about tonight. Prom? What?

Things are good. And they could be getting better. :)