Olympian Serenity

(Title is a quote from my newest monologue for Toni's class. it's so angry and fun that even though I was skeptical about the content, I feel awesome when I preform it. Even though I have to yell at poor joey who just sits there. i apologize about that though pretty often.)

I felt like I needed a new post. And I'm still not done writing about Reno and all that occurred there. I'm sure I'll finish it eventually.

Spring break came a week too early this year. But, it's here and I'm not in school. Instead, I move into the studio theatre at 10 in the morning with a hot glue gun and emerge blinking into the sunlight at 2 only to come back at 5 and stay until 9.
That was a lot of numbers.
The director of this show is insane. He's invaded all of our designs and with amazing stealth, managed to turn all of them into exactly what he wanted without us noticing. I don't remember what I wanted originally, but it wasn't this Scotty. I feel sorry for the people who work with you at American Girl. Because you have no concept of concepts. And you are so picky. It's impressive, though, that no one will challenge you. No one ever questions your godly word. Even when your idea is ludicrous. It's amazing.
I was so looking forward to this interaction. I was looking forward to working with you. Because you have connections. And then you turned into an ass. What a let down.
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I'm also afraid of everyone else's reactions. To him. Because they all somehow know. And that is embarrassing. I can see every one's raised eyebrows. And giggly nudges. I feel I'll be making a lot of death threats to shut them up. I would really just rather he not find out how very much I talk about him. Right now at least. I mean even Kris knows about him. I can just hear him saying something overprotective. Or something. Maybe he wouldn't. But he would do something. Ha. I feel like I should warn anyone who comes with me to the theatre that coming is like him meeting my family. My huge dysfunctional, theatrical, judgemental family. I love them like family. They look out for me, like family. They are family.

It's odd to watch the company girls transform themselves around new boys. It clearly proves how boy deprived we are. Well, some of us. Maybe that's why I don't like Seth as much. Because of stuff elsewhere. Still, I think the girls get kind of silly with the swooning and all. And the only ones that have any right to be at all hopeful are the oldest ones. Mostly just Lauren. Because she needs to see how beautiful she is. She needs some confidence.
I don't know how I did it, but I think I've found some confidence. And it makes life a better place.
Play it up Lauren. Smile and talk back. Nothing serious, I know, but provoking doesn't usually hurt. You will see someday that you are a beautiful person. Someone will make you see since I can't seem to.

And I've run out of things to say. Well, that's not true. It's just late and I haven't gotten enough sleep lately so I'm really tired. I'll keep you posted on this show. And the boys. And life.

In the meantime, I'll be enjoying the heat of summer. And dreaming of what tomorrow brings.