Proper Documentation

A recipe to make Feb52007 Caity? Here is what I told Natty:
"I'm mostly happy but I'm hiding my intense worry about the future and there is a lingering feeling of confusion about the people around me combined with frustration towards one particular person mixed with a dash of resigned futility. It's the grammatically incorrect recipe to make me. Put it in a baggy quick."

I am happily unhappy with myself right now.
It's a difficult struggle between the vast amount of difficult things I want and need to do and the things I've accepted I'll be able to do. It's the desire to conquer my lack of motivation in my school work conflicting with my content laziness. I want to be done with this chapter in my life. No, I'm ready to write a new book with an entirely new cast of characters. Still including the classic leads of course. How could I replace them?


I want to start making films. Just filming and seeing what happens. I don't want brilliance. I just want to film. I need to find a camera.