I've lost somthing I can't replace...

Coldplay drizzles out of my speakers. They remind me of Andy. Of his dance. I can see it in my head. Three years ago. The gold pants. The warm feeling. It was when I just loved him. Adored him. I can still see him. I still see his dance.
If I could fly at the speed of sound, where would I go?
Anywhere but here.
I am trapped. Trapped in the neon perameters of my bleak and starless city befriending the trash that litters the streets. At least I know, should I ever get lost, the lights will guide me home.
My desk is cluttered to the point of no return. Moving might be the only solution.
I wouldn't mind getting what I want, but not what I need. I feel so tired, but I just can't sleep.
I am one step closer to starting on my homework. Well, I got it out at least. As hard as I try, I can't find any motivation. I need motivation.

My brain's been all over the place lately. As you can see.
I've noticed I don't smile as much as I used to. I hope that someday, I'll find my smile again.

Warning! Vain and Bitter Banter Up Ahead. Please move along!

I must tell you this, because no one else will listen and I've already promised them I wouldn't tell.
Lindsey is being bitchy. I can't take it anymore. She had the nerve to tell me I'm a terrible person yesterday. Why? Why? Oh, I don't know. Because I don't think the same way she does. Because I don't tell people what I think of them? Yes. Because I don't tell people what I think of them. I don't walk up to someone and tell them they're a horrible ass. She's the perfect example of me not doing that.
Although it means I hold more inside, why should I tell people what I think of them. If I have some negative feeling about them, I don't need them knowing that. It's not a lie. It's my choice to keep people happy with me.
I can see Lindsey by the number of friends that you have (me) that your plan is really working well.

I'm still not telling you what I really think.

Gah, I must do my math homework now. Sadly, even though it's at the point of no return, I can't just move away and forget about it.