We all ask this question.

I should have hugged him when he so obviously wanted a hug.
He thought he was being subtle or maybe he was trying not to be. Upon his mentioning that someone could make a lot of money selling hugs I should have stood up and told him I was and would always be giving them away for free. But, instead I sat and considered standing up until Lindsey did instead and engulfed him. I'm not really happy with her right now. Not since she stole my entire essay, turned it in to Hampton and then didn't understand how I could be upset wit her. It made me laugh when he said that didn't make him feel any better at all and kinda smiled at me with his wide pleading smile. Still, I remained immobile.

I shouldn't be alienating boys. I want someone to hold my hand so badly that I should take whoever is willing to be on the receiving end of my hugs. There's Ryan who I love with but, everyone is hoping he's gay which kinda puts a damper on the whole boyfriend thing. There are other random guys. There always are. There's something wrong with the idea of me being with most of the though. Something just doesn't sound right.



I just want to be liked.
I want to be loved.
I want someone who's not afraid to say that I'm his girlfriend.
(God, why does this sound like one of those awful chain letters?)
Someone to hold my hand or kiss my check even if we're around his friends.
I want someone to cry if I was hurt and laugh when I want to laugh.
I just want to be liked.
I want to be loved.


How long am I going to be alone?